Loss of Identity
This began when my abusive ex husband began his terror and I fought back. My ex ran to local pd trying to press charges for me defending myself. He was arrested quickly after my arrival. Pd took pics of me. I then packed and moved out.
A few hours later DCFS Macoupin County Illinois show up at the friends home that I ran to. They threatened me many times that they would take my son although I had removed myself from the abusive home. They made me call anyone I knew to take my son. Finally, she allowed my son to stay with me. With the condition of a safety plan of my friend. Months went by before my case was closed but I was found guilty of neglect.
Fast forward 2 years ago.
My ex goes to jail for driving with no license for 10 days. Comes home and chooses to throw my son and myself out in the middle of winter a week before Christmas and after just losing the only parent I had. My mother. We reluctantly leave and move in with an older female friend.
Divorce papers on the way from him to me. Drug history violent past etc. Things get bad. Father refuses to help in any way I have zero support transportation and end up several times falling for the ex’s games moving in and getting kicked out of his home. I end up on our sons 7th birthday, a mess he has come back once again after 3 days of disappearing with his pregnant girlfriend kicking us out.
His homosexual neighbors seemingly having pity see the ordeal and take us in 2 days and kicked us out. Come to find out one of the gentlemen had molested my son.
So divorce day.
After consistent calling and begging cps for help as I was homeless with my son with empty promises to put me in government housing.
Father and I come to first time agreement to let son spend 1 night at father’s home with the promise return next day.
Following day at 11 am return time heated discussion over son staying again. With me disagreeing. He hangs up after telling me to fuck off. I’ll not see him again.
7 days go by calls from me to cps about father not returning son. With history they knew already. They say my son is fine and refuse to help me. Stating that father and I had nothing from court to go by as far as custody??
I end up starting to self medicate with drugs. Meth/ice to be exact due to horrible thoughts fear nightmares of my child and heartbreaking moments as I’d NEVER been without my child 7 years!! Before I finally get help from Safe Families Macoupin County Illinois.
I get a Order of Protection and father goes into hiding with son after 2 days of fighting Virden Illinois pd they finally get home to release son.
3 days before court I’d been using steadily until I got my son home. Home being a camper.
Divorce hearing, ex with huge history of drug abuse violence domestic violence and my home being a camper due to no family support nothing, and we go to court where he somehow gives a clean drug test and of course I failed. This all with his drug addict pregnant gf in hand. Court ends.
I’m furious never asking or receiving help nothing ex lies I go back to camper where sons court appointed attorney is to visit to see living conditions. I call son’s father and beg him to help out of fear they will take my baby. After fighting arguing and begging he finally agrees.
Just to call dcfa to meet him at er where he’s pretend father of the year is taking son to get a check up. They take my son without my knowledge and give temp custody to father.